mechanizedheart:

You’re still afraid to trust, still afraid to get close to anyone in fear that they’ll hurt you more than you hurt them. That lonely, sensitive heart of yours is better kept preserved in formaldehyde than being stuck inside your weak human body to beat on and on until it’s too late. You won’t be able to understand human intimacy, even five, ten years from now. Wouldn’t it be easier to give it up now? You’ll always be scum, disgusting trash that doesn’t even deserve to be scraped off the bottom of my heel. I do believe we’re similar beings, you and I.

youre wrong youre wrong youre so wrong that its funny i am nothing like you im different i can change i can get better i can learn to trust im different from how i was back then im not lonely anymore i have people that love me and wont use me and then leave me i might not understand why kido asks me to help her cook sometimes and then yells at me for trying to actually help her or why seto likes to pat me on the back two or three times or why kano laughs a little too loudly and throws his arm around my shoulders and drags me around to karaoke places or wherever he wants to go or why mary likes to sit next to me and read sometimes or why momo drags me out of the house to just go and play at the park in the neighborhood or why ene likes to play competitive games with me and ask for rematches even though i always win or why hibiya makes me buy him ice cream and makes me sit with him at the ice cream place or why konoha likes to sit on my bed and watch me use the computer and smiles at me and likes to hug me. i might not understand why they do that stuff and i might not like it all that much but im trying to learn why im trying my best so dont ever lump me in the same category as you ever again asshole

mechanizedheart:

Go back to the way you were. Pretend everything important to you is dead, living as a waste of space in that ten by twelve prison you call your room. Hold your breath when you hear footsteps- let it out when it passes. Don’t let them know you’re alive and well. Force them to lose hope, wrench out the faith they have in you. Make them indifferent when you finally rot and your skin peels away from decay. You were better before. You were so much better.

sto p… this is the last time im going to reply to you asshole im just going to block you afterwards fuck im not sure how you know about how i was when i was younger but i was just a fucking little shit that trusted no one and that hurt everyone that ever cared about me i thought i knew everything when i knew nothing at all about the world and i thought that i was so much better than everyone what part of that is better? nothing i might be scum but at least im not the lowest of scum anymore, like you

mechanizedheart:

It’s both unpleasant and amusing to see you flail around like an imbecile. You should stop worrying so much- your tiny, flea-sized brain might not be able to handle it. To answer your question, however, Konoha is out of commission. Hopefully you could fathom as something as simple as that.

oh fuck youre back again… urgh god i just finally get out of my shitty mood and here you are. im just going to ignore you, like how i should have when you first appeared. good fucking bye

does anyone actually know where konoha is??? ive been looking for that dumb piece of microwaved soap all day but i cant find him im actually starting to get a little worried for that guy jesus christ