mechanizedheart:

The police won’t do you any good. When has the police ever stopped anything? I promise I’ll take good care of your heart. I’ll embalm it in a nice, clean jar filled with formaldehyde and admire it until I feel it’s ripe enough to eat. It’s a simple process to understand, Shintaro, I can’t see why you dislike it. 

that sso disgusting and so wrong on so many different levels that i don t know where to fucking start jesus christ what the fuck is wrong with you what the actual fuck are you actually a cannibal are you fucking getting off becau se of the idea of eating my heart is so appealing to you??? i

im logging out im done with you god i feel sic k…

mechanizedheart:

The taste of your blood… The heat escaping past my fingers as I gulp every single drop out of your tepid heart. I can’t get enough of it, but it’s been so long ago since I’ve had the chance to savor it… It left behind a faint memory, but it was so, so invigorating. Let me have another bite. 

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im going to fucking call the police good fuckign by e

mechanizedheart:

Everyone will leave you someday. Desperate for love, desperate for some semblance of friendship, you’ll take anyone who fails to realize you’re garbage. Those fools have you dancing in the palm of their hand. They’re taking advantage of you. Sucking away the benefits of your company, they’ll throw you away once you’re useless. Your best effort won’t mean a thing to the selfish creatures that plague this planet. Humans are apathetic- loathsome. You know that. I know you do. Resign, don’t resist. You poor, pitiful thing.

youre wrong everyhting you say is wrong stop stop talking to me stop trying to li e to me theyre different they arent like the others they arent like scum like everyone else they like me for who i am and they won t leav e me so fuc kf off im blockin g you from now on leave me the hell alone givv e me konoha back

mechanizedheart:

You’re still afraid to trust, still afraid to get close to anyone in fear that they’ll hurt you more than you hurt them. That lonely, sensitive heart of yours is better kept preserved in formaldehyde than being stuck inside your weak human body to beat on and on until it’s too late. You won’t be able to understand human intimacy, even five, ten years from now. Wouldn’t it be easier to give it up now? You’ll always be scum, disgusting trash that doesn’t even deserve to be scraped off the bottom of my heel. I do believe we’re similar beings, you and I.

youre wrong youre wrong youre so wrong that its funny i am nothing like you im different i can change i can get better i can learn to trust im different from how i was back then im not lonely anymore i have people that love me and wont use me and then leave me i might not understand why kido asks me to help her cook sometimes and then yells at me for trying to actually help her or why seto likes to pat me on the back two or three times or why kano laughs a little too loudly and throws his arm around my shoulders and drags me around to karaoke places or wherever he wants to go or why mary likes to sit next to me and read sometimes or why momo drags me out of the house to just go and play at the park in the neighborhood or why ene likes to play competitive games with me and ask for rematches even though i always win or why hibiya makes me buy him ice cream and makes me sit with him at the ice cream place or why konoha likes to sit on my bed and watch me use the computer and smiles at me and likes to hug me. i might not understand why they do that stuff and i might not like it all that much but im trying to learn why im trying my best so dont ever lump me in the same category as you ever again asshole

mechanizedheart:

Go back to the way you were. Pretend everything important to you is dead, living as a waste of space in that ten by twelve prison you call your room. Hold your breath when you hear footsteps- let it out when it passes. Don’t let them know you’re alive and well. Force them to lose hope, wrench out the faith they have in you. Make them indifferent when you finally rot and your skin peels away from decay. You were better before. You were so much better.

sto p… this is the last time im going to reply to you asshole im just going to block you afterwards fuck im not sure how you know about how i was when i was younger but i was just a fucking little shit that trusted no one and that hurt everyone that ever cared about me i thought i knew everything when i knew nothing at all about the world and i thought that i was so much better than everyone what part of that is better? nothing i might be scum but at least im not the lowest of scum anymore, like you